confessions full of jack 27I will write, write it all down. I will chronicle every man I ever touched, every one who is a part of my personal history. I will expose the lies that accumulated and the weapons I acquired from each interaction. I will display every act of destruction, deception, manipulation, humiliation I was subjected to in the name of love and the quest for love. I am no longer ashamed, no longer afraid. I will not sugar coat my actions, I will not understate my sins. I will strip myself naked to keep the truth untainted.confessions full of jack 27 by yesilm
And maybe, hopefully, someone somewhere will read it and realize neither love nor the personal quest for love is an acceptable reason to annihilate souls.
confessions full of jack 26I am a fire breathing dragon who is no longer afraid to scorch this distorted reality down to avenge herself and what is hers.confessions full of jack 26 by yesilm
confessions full of jack 25I got here all on my own. No, that’s not correct. I let it happen, though. I didn’t stop the events that led me here. I turned off the screaming alarms; draped the talking mirrors, and hushed the murmurs of my heart. The instincts that kept me safely sane for years were told to calm down, to chill, to stop exaggerating.confessions full of jack 25 by yesilm
Now that I am here, the forsaken instincts cannot be trusted any more. I am at the land of fight or flight, at the land of defensive wounds, offensive tactics, and of roars and burnt flesh. No decisions can be made until I cease to be a mere reaction to the actions of others. No decisions can be made until the mirrors start talking to me again.
Now that I am here, I have to remain here.
confessions full of jack 24If the death of a tiny Betta makes me feel like I have been abandoned, and the loneliness stops echoing within my chest only to boom around the empty rooms, it can only mean I have forgotten how to truly connect with the people I claim to love. Which brings us to the actual point: Maybe I just don't know how to love.confessions full of jack 24 by yesilm