confessions full of jack 7

I used to have an eating disorder. -Binge eating at rock bottom, then starving myself deeper.- Even though I now know how to eat healthy and practice it, I still find myself stuffing my face senselessly in front of the refrigerator every once in a while. These meaningless binges don't last longer than 10 minutes anymore and I can suppress the urge to punish myself with starvation afterwards, but they are enough to scare me. The monster within reminds me that she is always there waiting for me to slip; and her existence keeps me on my toes. It is easier to slip when you are constantly on your toes.